I've been working with my inner child lately. Something I've egotistically avoided doing until now. She started showing up in my dreams about a month ago. A precocious little thing who purposefully kept her back to me and pretended not to hear me when I spoke. Normally that would infuriate me but this was different. I was intrigued!
A week or so went by and there she was again, but as an infant. In my self-absorption, I'd allowed her to be injured. As I desperately searched help for help I was jolted awake. I was physically shaken by my blatant neglect. How could I live as an enlightened being when I was so careless with the most precious and fragile part of me?
I journaled about little precocious Angela. I drew pictures of her (me) at the different ages she appeared. I talked to her (me) for the first time in my life. Not the ego-mind thinking out loud talking to myself but an honest heart-to-heart conversation. I spoke to each age...infant, toddler, pre-school, school-age, and adolescent. I spoke from my heart about love, about using my adult powers to protect and be responsible for us, and to say it's OKAY to feel what I felt, explore the world, be curious, ask questions, experiment, and to say what I wanted to say. It's OKAY to like what I like. It's OKAY to ask for what I want and expect to get it. It's OKAY to be me. 100% full vibrant, vulnerable, happy, smart, beautiful, quirky, sometimes crazy, chatty, creative, reclusive, moody, quiet, introspective, angry, silly, playful, sexual, inquisitive, unsure, sassy, sparkly me!
It's OKAY to be ME! And, it's OKAY to be YOU!
I encourage you to get to know your inner child. It's an amazing journey that can be frightening and beautiful. Get to know her, play with her, LOVE her ... that's all she's really looking for.
My Happy Birthday America wish to all today is:
Embrace Life, Celebrate your Uniqueness, and fall in LOVE with YOURSELF!
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