Emerging From the Red Tent

Today is the 'official' last day of my Red Tent.  I've made myself miserable for the past week because I could only see an end or that I was losing something exceptionally valuable.  I've woke every morning with a sense of dread, unable to escape the countdown in my head.  I've countered it by scolding myself, saying, "you should be grateful."  That only served to heap guilt on to my anxiety.  I've really struggled but today, I was given one more blesson.  (blessing+lesson)


I've come to associate the Red Tent with all the positive qualities of life.  I consciously created a sacred space to recover in but it became so much more than that.  It's taken on it's own characteristics and energy, it's absorbed my partner's energy and needs, and we've adjusted and accommodated each other.  My sadness has been in leaving this *space.*


How do I leave sacred space for the 'real' world?  How do I reconcile my re-awakened consciousness and the sense of peace it's given me with the chaos of traffic, schedules, and demands on my time and energy?  How do I live in the moment and juggle busyness, distractions, interruptions, and obligations to others?   How did I do it before?  What have I forgotten?


I'd forgotten my tools: meditation, Reiki, love.  Most importantly though, that I am a co-creator of my experience in this world.  


I've allowed my ego to run amok and drag me into the victim mindset, that all of this was happening to me.  I wasn't loving or honoring myself and I certainly wasn't creating an experience I wanted any part of!!  


It was one of those screeching halt moments and I breathed deep cleansing belly breaths as I let the realization of that settle in me.  I sat with it for several minutes gifting myself with the space it was creating.  My body physically relaxed and my breaths became even deeper.  There was an expansive peace about me and clarity was shining through from deep in my soul.  


Sacred space is WITHIN me, within each of us.  It isn't some place we visit, we carry it inside us, we were born with it, it's our Divine birth right!


I stopped everything I was doing and settled into meditate.  I was moved to send distance Reiki to the office ... beginning at my desk, moving out through my space and across the whole floor.  I expanded it to cover the whole building and property as well.  There were several spots that required extra attention, one being the office adjacent to mine.  The energy in it was spilling over into my space.  I boosted the Reiki and kept Love in my heart.  I focused on the gratitude I have for my "work family" and the benefits that allowed me six-weeks away.  I radiated joy and peace into the space.  


I'm psychically cleansing the space and reinforcing it with a new plant and crystals to capture and deflect or transmute any negative energy.  And I'm adding the Satima prayer as a gentle reminder that *I* (or you) am what's important.  

May I clear my mind of all thoughts 

And focus my intent on stillness

May I clear my field of busyness,

And connect to my deepest faith

May I open my emotional body

And allow healing flow

May I honor this physical form

As a sacred temple

May I walk my highest purpose

With gratitude

For this precious time.

In peace, love and joy for the next leg of the journey!